Valentine's Day (Shameful) letra

Torn between crying for help
And not lettin' them see me sweat
But it's certain shit I can't forget
I won't get over it easy, shit makes me queasy

I am making amends with myself
Forgiving me for loving you
I took a risk loving loudly, defended you proudly
Ignored all the signs, yeah, it's true

And the immature me wishes that I could make it known
That you should be left alone
Don't deserve words or thoughts from me
I can go heal on my own
And the immature me hopes the world sees just who you are, oh
A facade only gets you so far
And I'm bigger than you, so I can't meet you where you are

I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
You played the hero but you really are the villain
There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelin's
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition

Used me for status, and the fame, and recognition
It's f*ckin' crazy what they do for recognition
I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
I'd say your name but I won't, uh

I got to give myself credit for loving as hard as I did
I helped you fight your addiction and change your whole life
Just to find myself played in the end
Ain't no regrets cause I'm proud that my heart was so pure
And I'm never ashamed of my love
Now I'm finding strength in the fact that you're nothing to me
And I know the things I am above

And the immature me wishes I could just run away (Ah, ah, ah)
To somewhere I still feel sane
'Cause truth is I've been f*ckin' lost since that very day
And really I'm wishing that I could just catch a break (Ah, ah, ah)
It's been hell every couple days (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
And now, I'm here broken, expected to carry the weight

I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition (Nah)
You played the hero but you really are the villain
There ain't a bone in me that wants to spare your feelings (Ah)
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition (Ah)

Used me for status and the fame and recognition (Ah)
It's f*cking crazy what they do for recognition (Ooh)
I'd say your name but you don't deserve recognition
I'd say your name but I won't, uh

That's just you (Deserve recognition)

I always land on my feet
Bounce back game clean and neat (Ah, woah-woah, ah)
Wish I didn't check your text when you was drunk 'sleep
I've seen everything that I ain't wanna see

That I needed to see, that I needed to be
Hope you live happily ever after with the bitch (Bitch), uh
Fly to France, wine and crackers, honeymoonin' with the bitch
Hope you f*ck around and have the son you wanted with the bitch

Y'all might be soulmates after all of this, so
Out on the table your friends and your family, even your label
Everyone love me, damn, it's so shameful
I kept you stable, you should be grateful

I ain't find out sooner that you was unfaithful
Damn, you so shameful
So f*cking shameful
Damn, you're so, uh, f*cking ungrateful, uh